Music Triggered Memories...

I'm groggy... It's an ungodly hour, what is that noise?  I attempt to open my eyes, realizing the lamp is still lit, but the sun is starting to creep up.  I listen closer, it's Iris by Goo Goo Dolls.  I sit up and realize, he told me this song reminds him of us.  I turn to my left and see him all snuggled up in the comforter.  So cute and so sleepy.  He only got here a couple of days ago and I'm sure he's still jet-lagged.  The music gets louder as it's the alarm on his laptop which he left on last night.  I smile, run to the desk and turn off the alarm.  He never even heard it or felt me get out of the king size bed.  We arrived at the upstate NY casino yesterday afternoon.  It seemed kinda busy with a big buzz going on.  I find my robe and peek out our 3rd floor window to see a couple posing for their wedding pictures.  Oh yeah, today is 07/07/07, tons of superstitious fools are getting married because they think it's their lucky day.  I look over my shoulder and wonder if he will one day ask me.  I'm in no hurry, but what if?  We just click so well together.  I can't imagine life without him.  We enjoy a lot of the same things.  We have so much planned this trip.  I want to enjoy every moment to the fullest.  Including this one, watching him sleep, his long, dark, beautiful eyelashes and freckles that he says are a British curse, but I think are so amazingly adorable.  Last night we went to a concert downstairs in the Casino.  It was one of our favorite bands.  He completed my collection of their CDs the second time I went to see him, with a rare, unavailable one he got from the guitar player the last time they had come to his town.

I laugh as I remember the couple on the elevator with us last night.  The chick was drunk out of her mind.  They jumped on after us and she giggled at us and pointed and said, you two look like twins!  I looked down and realized we were both wearing black t-shirts and he had on camo shorts and I had a camo mini skirt on.  I guess she was right.  We just stared at her until they got off.  He was fighting to stay awake.  The 5 hour time difference wearing on him at this hour of the night.

We got back to the hotel room and immediately locked the door behind us.  He grabbed me and we were kissing, like we needed each other to breathe, to survive.

I'm dreading the drive back to PA today, but at least I know he will be right next to me, holding my hand.  I won't be alone on this trip.  I absolutely love it when he's here.  Life is as it should be.  I'm completely happy and nothing can ruin my mood.  Not even my Dad who refuses to meet him, because 'it's just wrong.'  If only he could see how happy I am when I'm with him, maybe he'd change his mind.  But he won't even meet him...

We have plans to go to the big fireworks show tonight.  We went to it last year when he was here and I have to admit, I can't wait.  I may be old-fashioned, but I love having someone snuggled up in an old blanket with me watching the show.   When we get back to my apartment we plan to just relax and watch Live 8 on TV, maybe get a pizza and chill out until it's time to go pick a spot to watch the midnight fireworks.  I know we will walk hand in hand and as small a thing as it seems, it makes my heart jump.

I crawl back into bed next to him and kiss this cute little wrinkle he has on his forehead.  He seriously should not have wrinkles yet at his age.  Maybe it's because he lives next to the sea, or maybe he just worries a lot.  He opens those beautiful blue eyes and smiles back at me.  This is another one of those moments.  Life is amazing and so his he.

Ok...it's March 21, 2012.  Iris just started playing on my computer.  I'm smiling and crying at the same time.   Every time I hear this song, this is the memory I have.  When life was great and I was amazingly happy.  I know things ended for a reason.  I know they had to.  Glass half-full me really hopes I get another shot at feeling that 'on top of the world' feeling again.  But even if I don't, I felt it once and I was so lucky.  Thank you, Kevin, wherever you are.